Inspired

For the past two weekends I’ve been studying with my vocal coach at a master class he arranged for his students, which contained two full Saturdays of 40 minute sessions of singing for each student (ten of us in total) and a concert on Sunday. 
I can not explain how inspired I am, but I’m going to try. 

 Actually, right before coming home to Sweden I had a two day pit stop in London for a late audition at The Guildhall School of Music. It’s was fun, it went okay, I was terribly nervous. It is not ideal to have an audition after three weeks of Christmas Holiday, but I decided to go for it and see what happened!
I didn’t go thorough to the second round and, frankly, I don’t care. 
I realized that I have everything I need right here where I am and here is where I want and need to be, for now. 
London won’t disappear. 
Neither will New York, Italy or, my dream of all dreams…Paris!

I got this confirmed again these past two weeks.
It's wonderful getting to watch and listen to other students that are working with the same technique as myself. 
Hearing how someone whose come a bit farther than myself has got it all down and hearing someone just picking up those key elements and trying to put it to use is tremendously nurturing. 

For the past years I’ve been up and down with depression.
I haven’t been this happy in a long time and it seems to have started when I came home from London. 
I am so happy I went! 
It’s like a heavy weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I’ve finally found freedom!
I don’t care about getting in to a school…Yet!
I want to enjoy life!
I might apply in Stockholm, I might not. 
I’m happy either way.
That feeling is such a sensation! 
My goal in life is to be happy and more importantly to find happiness within myself. 
I am so happy! 
All by myself!

At school we are currently having master classes with Mario Diaz. Again, I’m inspired! 
More inspired! 
Singing has become fun again! 
But I’ll write more about that another time…

xx Erika Grace

Photos by Åke Cappelin, edited by me.